I'm leaving for a while,
I'm leaving everything, actually..
I'm currently under a lot of stress and depression, feeling highly insecure... I thought I was gonna be able to isolate them from affecting my daily life, but.. it's hard, I don't think I can keep up with it any longer, I lost my motivation to..
It's hard for a clingy person such as myself to fake being ok, since I need others around me badly.. and faking it wasn't a smart idea since I guess it made some believe that I was really ok ^^' when I actually was in desperate need of someone to share what I'm feeling with..
ow well, I never was smart in the first place =~=v

I'll be trying to clear my mind in that time, and relax a bit, enough crying and insomnia already.

It's 1:00 am here, a new day
and so I say Good Bye ^_^
I'll miss you all.

to Missy and Xinny;
thank you so much for working hard on cheering me up and being there for me, you two were able to see through me even with the technique I used to disguise my feelings. It really made me feel happy
^oo^ I love you two